Two months sober. Never thought I'd say that both because I never thought sobriety would be something I'd seek and because I never thought I could ever do it. To be sober is quite sobering Photo by Sora Shimazaki on Pexels.com In the two months since quitting drinking I wish I could say so much… Continue reading Two Months Sober
The Side Effects of Loneliness
I didn’t realize how lonely I’ve been until this weekend. Even surrounded by my children and my husband on weeknights and weekends, I’m lonely. Even seeing some friends occasionally, I’m still lonely. I’ve spent too much time alone with myself that my brain is playing tricks on me. My insecurities are rising, my childhood programming… Continue reading The Side Effects of Loneliness
Blackout.
20 years ago, at the impressionable age of 15, I put myself in a situation that I still regret to this day. I believe I was raped. Or believed. Or believe. I’m not sure anymore. Over the course of researching and writing my book, memories long forgotten have started to surface, including some about one… Continue reading Blackout.
You Can Go Now, Anxiety!
I normally only write about the hardships in my life after I’ve learned the lesson or once I’ve healed from the experience enough to revisit it through words. I like telling the sad or hard stories but ending on the lesson, a written Modern Family episode, if you will. But today I’m writing from the… Continue reading You Can Go Now, Anxiety!
You’re Her Mother
I don’t post about parenting very often because frankly, I doubt myself constantly. With three kids with three very different personalities, I’m barely holding my head above water most days but something happened the other day that holds a very valuable lesson for us parents. Last week was Picture Day at school. My oldest was… Continue reading You’re Her Mother
Finding the Answers
I’d been on the fence for a few years about sobriety. Could I do it? Would I do it? How? I started by committing to Sober October a few days early after a particularly embarrassing drunken night at the end of September. I told most people I was doing it to see if I could… Continue reading Finding the Answers
Strolling with Sobriety
ONE month sober. I genuinely thought I’d never be able to say this. Even during pregnancy I’d have a sip here or a small glass of wine there. I have never gone this long sober since I started drinking at 14. Sad, eh? I’ve had this niggling feeling in the back of my mind for… Continue reading Strolling with Sobriety
My Gratitude for My Anxiety
It’s Thanksgiving weekend. There’s so much to be grateful for, especially in a month that has World Mental Health Day and Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness; two struggles I know intimately. Anxiety makes you question everything. This quote is a salve for the hard days If you’ve read my recent blogs, you’ll know that my… Continue reading My Gratitude for My Anxiety
I Wouldn’t Have It Any Other Way. Or Would I?
A friend and I were texting the other day and she said, “I hope everything’s going well with you and the fam." I responded, “I’m literally drowning in children but I wouldn’t have it any other way!” I immediately noticed two things: I improperly used the word literally and I lied. Would I have it… Continue reading I Wouldn’t Have It Any Other Way. Or Would I?
Words As Arrows: Hitting the Mark
Have you ever been told something and although you knew it was true you couldn’t act on it or believe it? For instance, maybe your best friend told you that you deserved better than the guy you were with? Or maybe you were in an abusive relationship and everyone you loved was begging you to… Continue reading Words As Arrows: Hitting the Mark
