ONE month sober. I genuinely thought I’d never be able to say this. Even during pregnancy I’d have a sip here or a small glass of wine there. I have never gone this long sober since I started drinking at 14. Sad, eh? I’ve had this niggling feeling in the back of my mind for… Continue reading Strolling with Sobriety
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I Wouldn’t Have It Any Other Way. Or Would I?
A friend and I were texting the other day and she said, “I hope everything’s going well with you and the fam." I responded, “I’m literally drowning in children but I wouldn’t have it any other way!” I immediately noticed two things: I improperly used the word literally and I lied. Would I have it… Continue reading I Wouldn’t Have It Any Other Way. Or Would I?
I Cannot Be Broken
I thought I was broken during my fertility struggles. I was emotionally and mentally in pieces and my body? Well, It wouldn’t do what I wanted. So it was broken too. Nothing was going to plan therefore everything was broken. As I crumbled, things around me crumbled. The engine in my car blew, my daughter… Continue reading I Cannot Be Broken
UnTangling The Knots: The Other Side of Motherhood After Infertility
Since June 10, 2019 I’ve been in knots in a tug o’ war between my logical mind and my emotional self; a back and forth between guilt and awe, fear and joy. I know too many women who would give anything to be in my place right. My six year old daughter dances through the… Continue reading UnTangling The Knots: The Other Side of Motherhood After Infertility
Motherhood: The Form Fear Takes
Fear takes an unusual form in my world. It’s a dark, unmoving shadow in my periphery. If I try to trick it and look quickly in its direction, it disappears. But it’s always there. Lurking. Seeping into my mind like early morning fog. I never knew this fear before motherhood. It’s a fear of Life… Continue reading Motherhood: The Form Fear Takes
When The Past Sneaks Up and Kicks You in The… Anxiety
The only way through anxiety is through the anxiety. You literally have to go through it: feel it, experience it, abhor it, resent it, accept it and then move through it. You have to go through the feelings. I believe anxiety is our minds way of telling our bodies something is wrong. We haven’t been… Continue reading When The Past Sneaks Up and Kicks You in The… Anxiety
Then The Tears Come: A Lesson in Tragedy, Perspective and Love
My husband tells me I’m surrounded by tragedy. I know too many people who’ve faced terrible circumstances. I laugh him off: I run a fertility charity, of course I know tragedy. I know tragedy intimately both from my own life’s journey (and those I love) and because I am the type of person people want… Continue reading Then The Tears Come: A Lesson in Tragedy, Perspective and Love
Letting Go of What Others Think
Well, you can take the blog away from the writer but you can't truly take the writer away from the blog. I missed writing. I missed this blog. I was on the fence about returning for awhile. I had to do a lot of soul searching as to my reasons for quitting and… Continue reading Letting Go of What Others Think
The Birth of A Monumental Idea*
*originally published here. When I wrote a blog post about a past miscarriage in the early days of my blogging career, I had no idea the response I would receive. CBC radio asked me to come on air and discuss my fertility and miscarriage and even added an article for their online content. CBC National… Continue reading The Birth of A Monumental Idea*
Imagine…
I have a really big bone to pick and it could be the #pregnancyhormones but it’s more likely the entitlement and perceptions of our society that has me a bit more than a little annoyed. I was feeling blah about this weekend’s blog and had no ideas for potential topics. Until yesterday. My family and… Continue reading Imagine…
What We Don't Do 