I surrendered. I waved the white flag. My cup wasn’t just empty, it was shattered. All my self care tools in my arsenal were failing: the bubble baths, the yoga, the poolside visits with friends, nothing was helping me feel refreshed and content. There is at least one child who is always on me. I’m… Continue reading Waving the White Flag
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Healing Generational Trauma
I’ve been hesitant to share this story, partially because it’s ongoing but mostly because it’s not fully my story to share. But it’s a story of generational trauma and family and unconditional love: things every single one of us can relate to in some way or another. It’s a story that has affected me my… Continue reading Healing Generational Trauma
The Birth of A Monumental Idea*
*originally published here. When I wrote a blog post about a past miscarriage in the early days of my blogging career, I had no idea the response I would receive. CBC radio asked me to come on air and discuss my fertility and miscarriage and even added an article for their online content. CBC National… Continue reading The Birth of A Monumental Idea*
Excuse Me While I Disconnect
I am addicted to my phone. I’m the first to admit it and the first to get defensive when someone calls me out on it. My husband is the same. And a phone addiction does not bode well for marriage or family life. He would get mad at me for using mine and I’d get… Continue reading Excuse Me While I Disconnect
A Letter To All The Babies Who’ve Left Us Too Soon*
*originally published here. Dear Baby, We miss you terribly. To even use the word terribly doesn’t do justice to the gaping hole that’s permanently etched into our hearts, our souls, our psyches. We thought it’d scar over and we’d move on in some unnatural way but it hasn’t. We don’t know if it ever will.… Continue reading A Letter To All The Babies Who’ve Left Us Too Soon*
To the Women Suffering in Silence
To the Women Suffering in Silence, I struggled with infertility for a long time before finally getting (unexpectedly) pregnant and having a successful pregnancy. Since having my daughter, however, I have had four back-to-back miscarriages. I started blogging about my experiences after my second and worst miscarriage. This blog became like a warm country kitchen… Continue reading To the Women Suffering in Silence
The Sound of Your Heart Breaking Sounds Like This
Two weeks ago, I was pregnant. Two days ago, I was not pregnant. Miscarriage #4 came and went as quickly as Fall seems to come: sudden and beautiful only to end way before you've had your fill of the reds, oranges and yellows. We decided we were ready to try for another baby. I felt… Continue reading The Sound of Your Heart Breaking Sounds Like This
Mommy, Slow Down, You’re Going Too Fast
It was those seven words that hit me in the chest like the descent from the tallest roller coaster. My stomach dropped, my heart sped up and quite frankly, my mind was blown. My daughter meant it about the tire swing she was on but I heard a completely different statement. I was going too… Continue reading Mommy, Slow Down, You’re Going Too Fast
Real Talk: Transforming Tragedy into Love with Ashley Gordon
When I met Ashley Gordon last summer at a BBQ, I was floored by her beauty and her aura. But once we got talking, I was really blown away by how incredible she was. She told me a story* you wouldn't believe if you hadn't heard it from her mouth. Her boyfriend died in… Continue reading Real Talk: Transforming Tragedy into Love with Ashley Gordon
Infertility and Pregancy Loss: A Lesson in Life and Hope and Motherhood
Is it just me or does it feel like infertility is on the rise? It seems we all know someone or friends of someone struggling to conceive these days, right? I sure do. I have friends who thought as soon as they went off birth control, it would happen. And for some, it did. But… Continue reading Infertility and Pregancy Loss: A Lesson in Life and Hope and Motherhood
