*Originally published here The other day a new friend, a fellow Phoenix mama, gave me some sympathy for my four recurrent miscarriages. She apologized for the losses and commented “oh, your poor heart.” While I certainly appreciated the love and her sweet, kind heart, I felt nothing. There was no sadness or anger or… Continue reading It’s Okay to Be Okay…or not.*
Without fail, every time I miscarry I spend a significant amount of time questioning everything. WHY is on repeat, over and over like a skipping CD. I question the body that betrayed me. I question the food I put in my body, the kilometres my feet walked during those weeks. I question the temperature of the… Continue reading Creating a Legacy: Finding Sense in the Senseless
To the Women Suffering in Silence, I struggled with infertility for a long time before finally getting (unexpectedly) pregnant and having a successful pregnancy. Since having my daughter, however, I have had four back-to-back miscarriages. I started blogging about my experiences after my second and worst miscarriage. This blog became like a warm country kitchen… Continue reading To the Women Suffering in Silence
When I met Ashley Gordon last summer at a BBQ, I was floored by her beauty and her aura. But once we got talking, I was really blown away by how incredible she was. She told me a story* you wouldn't believe if you hadn't heard it from her mouth. Her boyfriend died in… Continue reading Real Talk: Transforming Tragedy into Love with Ashley Gordon
Grief is not linear. It is up and down, sideways and crossways. It ebbs and flows. Grief has no agenda or timeline, no matter how much you try to negotiate with it for one. Grief has a mind of its own, one that rarely makes sense to you. It moves deep into your soul… Continue reading How To Be There For Your Grieving Loved One
I need to know that what I'm feeling is normal. That what I'm going through is a part of the process of grieving. Even though I've had two previous angel baby losses, it's easy to forget how you felt in those moments. The first was almost three years ago and my memory of the after… Continue reading Living In The Void
In an earlier post I mentioned that my husband and I had made peace with being childless only to find out we were expecting our daughter a few weeks later. In another more recent post, I mentioned how my husband and I had recently made peace with only having one child. Well, as they say,… Continue reading A Pregnancy Announcement…Of Sorts.