I thought I was broken during my fertility struggles. I was emotionally and mentally in pieces and my body? Well, It wouldn’t do what I wanted. So it was broken too. Nothing was going to plan therefore everything was broken. As I crumbled, things around me crumbled. The engine in my car blew, my daughter… Continue reading I Cannot Be Broken
Tag: healing
When The Past Sneaks Up and Kicks You in The… Anxiety
The only way through anxiety is through the anxiety. You literally have to go through it: feel it, experience it, abhor it, resent it, accept it and then move through it. You have to go through the feelings. I believe anxiety is our minds way of telling our bodies something is wrong. We haven’t been… Continue reading When The Past Sneaks Up and Kicks You in The… Anxiety
Healing Generational Trauma
I’ve been hesitant to share this story, partially because it’s ongoing but mostly because it’s not fully my story to share. But it’s a story of generational trauma and family and unconditional love: things every single one of us can relate to in some way or another. It’s a story that has affected me my… Continue reading Healing Generational Trauma
Forgiveness, Compassion and Love…A Life Changing Weekend to Remember
How do you begin to explain a weekend that changed your life? A weekend that stretched your soul and bared your heart and broke you open? How can a person articulate the healing that took place that defies logic and belief? Words seem futile for explaining but I’m going to try! Oprah says an ‘a-ha’… Continue reading Forgiveness, Compassion and Love…A Life Changing Weekend to Remember
The Woo-woo Behind My Woo-hoo!
When our daughter was conceived (and birthed) in 2013 after years of unexplained infertility, I had no trouble getting pregnant afterwards. It was staying pregnant that became the problem. But I had three pregnancies in 2017 (vs one in 2016, none in 2015 and one in 2014) so something must’ve been working while something else… Continue reading The Woo-woo Behind My Woo-hoo!
Bell Let’s Talk: The Depression I NEVER Talk About
When I miscarried the second time, it felt like a two-fold tragedy: one, we lost a baby we desperately wanted and two; karma was having its way with me. You see, as a teenager, I had two abortions. I’ll pause here to say: Save your judgments. There is NOTHING you can say to me that… Continue reading Bell Let’s Talk: The Depression I NEVER Talk About
The Epilogue to My Story
A few weeks ago I wrote a post releasing my fertility journey and all of the negativity surrounding it. I no longer wanted to talk about what I had been through. I didn’t want to hear the words ‘miscarriage’ or ‘secondary infertility’ anymore. I wanted to remove myself from the online support groups, delete the fertility… Continue reading The Epilogue to My Story
Four Books to Help Make Your 2018 Incredible
Are you one of those people who set New Year Resolutions? Or are you someone who knows yourself well enough to avoid making such a preposterous 365 day goal? Maybe you prefer bite size goals so you set 30 day goals or three month goals. I have been both but this year I’m saying to… Continue reading Four Books to Help Make Your 2018 Incredible
I’ve Become THAT Person
If you've been following along in my (almost!) one year journey of blogging, I've had a pretty transformational year. Two miscarriages and a whole bucketload of self reflection and healing has led me to admit something that I never thought I'd say: I'm ridiculously, ridiculously happy. I've become THAT person: the one who is always… Continue reading I’ve Become THAT Person
It’s Okay to Be Okay…or not.*
*Originally published here The other day a new friend, a fellow Phoenix mama, gave me some sympathy for my four recurrent miscarriages. She apologized for the losses and commented “oh, your poor heart.” While I certainly appreciated the love and her sweet, kind heart, I felt nothing. There was no sadness or anger or… Continue reading It’s Okay to Be Okay…or not.*
