*names have been changed. There’s a door opening in my world right now and I am petrified. I am scared of failing, of upsetting others, of realizing I’m not cut out for this new world I’m about to enter. I’m a cocktail of nervous excitement, petrified fear, buzzing electricity and wavering doubts. I am… Continue reading Sometimes Later Never Comes
My husband tells me I’m surrounded by tragedy. I know too many people who’ve faced terrible circumstances. I laugh him off: I run a fertility charity, of course I know tragedy. I know tragedy intimately both from my own life’s journey (and those I love) and because I am the type of person people want… Continue reading Then The Tears Come: A Lesson in Tragedy, Perspective and Love
I’ve been hesitant to share this story, partially because it’s ongoing but mostly because it’s not fully my story to share. But it’s a story of generational trauma and family and unconditional love: things every single one of us can relate to in some way or another. It’s a story that has affected me my… Continue reading Healing Generational Trauma
I posted a thirty week baby bump picture on my Instagram yesterday and the response I received both public and private have been overwhelming to say the least. It is an enormous relief to know that I’m not alone in my parenting fears. You see, I wanted a second baby so badly that I was… Continue reading Am I Worthy of Being Their Mom?
To say I had a good childhood would be true...until I was 12 that is. Then shit hit the fan. To protect my family who may read this and for those who know them, I'll leave it to your imagination to understand how a young girl with a bright future chose victimhood, resentment, booze, sex… Continue reading My Past Doesn’t Define Me. It Inspires Me.
How do you begin to explain a weekend that changed your life? A weekend that stretched your soul and bared your heart and broke you open? How can a person articulate the healing that took place that defies logic and belief? Words seem futile for explaining but I’m going to try! Oprah says an ‘a-ha’… Continue reading Forgiveness, Compassion and Love…A Life Changing Weekend to Remember
*originally published here. When I wrote a blog post about a past miscarriage in the early days of my blogging career, I had no idea the response I would receive. CBC radio asked me to come on air and discuss my fertility and miscarriage and even added an article for their online content. CBC National… Continue reading The Birth of A Monumental Idea*
I have a really big bone to pick and it could be the #pregnancyhormones but it’s more likely the entitlement and perceptions of our society that has me a bit more than a little annoyed. I was feeling blah about this weekend’s blog and had no ideas for potential topics. Until yesterday. My family and… Continue reading Imagine…
Dear loyal readers, followers, supporters, sharers and more, It’s been one heck of a ride since starting this blog. I’ve been on the radio twice and the national online news once and it’s been thrilling. When I began blogging, my intention was never to share my struggles with my infertility and miscarriages. It just so… Continue reading The End of a Chapter: Saying Goodbye to My Infertility Story
*Originally published here The other day a new friend, a fellow Phoenix mama, gave me some sympathy for my four recurrent miscarriages. She apologized for the losses and commented “oh, your poor heart.” While I certainly appreciated the love and her sweet, kind heart, I felt nothing. There was no sadness or anger or… Continue reading It’s Okay to Be Okay…or not.*