"Anger is only one letter short of danger"Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com As I sat in the grey chair in her office, tears filled my eyes as I awaited her first words. She asked, “So? Why are you here?” As I sat in the grey chair in her office, tears filled my eyes as I… Continue reading Therapy, EMDR and a Bag of Plums
Soaking up our fourth (and final) baby! When I look back on 2022, it was a pretty incredulous year (who has four kids these days, anyways?!) with deep pockets of hardships. I started January hugely pregnant at 32 weeks pregnant intent on having a peaceful, unmedicated hospital birth. The end of February came; my waters… Continue reading Where Do We Go From Here?
My husband and I had our first getaway since having our third child who’s now one. It was a long time coming and boy, did we need it. A third kid during a pandemic year and we needed alone time desperately. We arrived at our destination and immediately I found myself anxious. What do we… Continue reading Permission Granted
I don’t talk about my marriage very often because my husband is a very private person and we’ve agreed there’s some things that are best left between us. But something happened recently and I think there’s a valuable lesson in it. Laying it out since 2008! Clay owns and operates a busy construction company. It’s… Continue reading Leave It On The Table
I don’t post about parenting very often because frankly, I doubt myself constantly. With three kids with three very different personalities, I’m barely holding my head above water most days but something happened the other day that holds a very valuable lesson for us parents. Last week was Picture Day at school. My oldest was… Continue reading You’re Her Mother
I’m pregnant. I’m shocked. I’m scared. I’m slightly devastated. I’m slightly excited. After five years of actively trying to have our son (who is ten months old today) we didn’t think this would or could ever happen. Between my endometriosis and nursing- I thought we were safe with the ole pull out method. Clearly my… Continue reading Peeing in the Dark
My husband tells me I’m surrounded by tragedy. I know too many people who’ve faced terrible circumstances. I laugh him off: I run a fertility charity, of course I know tragedy. I know tragedy intimately both from my own life’s journey (and those I love) and because I am the type of person people want… Continue reading Then The Tears Come: A Lesson in Tragedy, Perspective and Love
Well, you can take the blog away from the writer but you can't truly take the writer away from the blog. I missed writing. I missed this blog. I was on the fence about returning for awhile. I had to do a lot of soul searching as to my reasons for quitting and… Continue reading Letting Go of What Others Think
I posted a thirty week baby bump picture on my Instagram yesterday and the response I received both public and private have been overwhelming to say the least. It is an enormous relief to know that I’m not alone in my parenting fears. You see, I wanted a second baby so badly that I was… Continue reading Am I Worthy of Being Their Mom?
As I sit here typing this, I’m 19 weeks pregnant. I can feel this little bean moving around now and my husband has felt her/him kick twice. My breasts are bigger and tender. I’m still nauseous and eating is a struggle to keep the food down. I’m emotional and weep at most movies, regardless of… Continue reading I’m Guilty of Feeling Scared to Be a Mom to a Second Baby