I thought I was broken during my fertility struggles. I was emotionally and mentally in pieces and my body? Well, It wouldn’t do what I wanted. So it was broken too. Nothing was going to plan therefore everything was broken. As I crumbled, things around me crumbled. The engine in my car blew, my daughter… Continue reading I Cannot Be Broken
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To The Childless Mothers…
To The Childless Mothers, Mother’s Day is fast approaching and I’m sure it’s an occasion you dread. It’s a reminder of all you’ve lost, sacrificed, attempted with all your might and yet, still do not have. It’s a hard day. Many women are celebrated while the rest of you will get unacknowledged; your angel babies… Continue reading To The Childless Mothers…
The Woo-woo Behind My Woo-hoo!
When our daughter was conceived (and birthed) in 2013 after years of unexplained infertility, I had no trouble getting pregnant afterwards. It was staying pregnant that became the problem. But I had three pregnancies in 2017 (vs one in 2016, none in 2015 and one in 2014) so something must’ve been working while something else… Continue reading The Woo-woo Behind My Woo-hoo!
The Epilogue to My Story
A few weeks ago I wrote a post releasing my fertility journey and all of the negativity surrounding it. I no longer wanted to talk about what I had been through. I didn’t want to hear the words ‘miscarriage’ or ‘secondary infertility’ anymore. I wanted to remove myself from the online support groups, delete the fertility… Continue reading The Epilogue to My Story
I’ve Become THAT Person
If you've been following along in my (almost!) one year journey of blogging, I've had a pretty transformational year. Two miscarriages and a whole bucketload of self reflection and healing has led me to admit something that I never thought I'd say: I'm ridiculously, ridiculously happy. I've become THAT person: the one who is always… Continue reading I’ve Become THAT Person
It’s Okay to Be Okay…or not.*
*Originally published here The other day a new friend, a fellow Phoenix mama, gave me some sympathy for my four recurrent miscarriages. She apologized for the losses and commented “oh, your poor heart.” While I certainly appreciated the love and her sweet, kind heart, I felt nothing. There was no sadness or anger or… Continue reading It’s Okay to Be Okay…or not.*
Angel Babies and Silver Linings*
*Originally published here. I never wanted to have kids. Ever. I was eight the first time I remember saying I didn’t want to ever be a mom. I had big goals and motherhood wasn’t one of them. Then I entered a relationship in my early 20’s that had me living in a new world immersed… Continue reading Angel Babies and Silver Linings*
Creating a Legacy: Finding Sense in the Senseless
Without fail, every time I miscarry I spend a significant amount of time questioning everything. WHY is on repeat, over and over like a skipping CD. I question the body that betrayed me. I question the food I put in my body, the kilometres my feet walked during those weeks. I question the temperature of the… Continue reading Creating a Legacy: Finding Sense in the Senseless
A Letter To All The Babies Who’ve Left Us Too Soon*
*originally published here. Dear Baby, We miss you terribly. To even use the word terribly doesn’t do justice to the gaping hole that’s permanently etched into our hearts, our souls, our psyches. We thought it’d scar over and we’d move on in some unnatural way but it hasn’t. We don’t know if it ever will.… Continue reading A Letter To All The Babies Who’ve Left Us Too Soon*
Beliefs and Butterflies
I believe all beings are connected to a Source, a cosmic energy, a consciousness; whatever you want to call it, I know you know what I mean. Call it energy or vibes or a gut feeling but the human five senses aren’t all we have. There’s so much more. Everything on Earth is a tapestry… Continue reading Beliefs and Butterflies
